Sinking into The Matrix

Growth, evolution and ascension are all about stepping into a greater and more marvellous unknown, with awareness and acceptance, so that an experiential understanding arises, and it is no longer unknown, but part of our greater consciousness, and what was marvellous becomes a higher level of normal, and then stepping into an even greater and even more marvellous unknown, understanding and assimilating this, and on and on. Growth is not a continuation or a logical extrapolation of what already exists, which is just more of the same. The unknown is always different than what we already know. This is how a person grows into higher and higher states of consciousness. Anybody who is planning out and controlling their growth is not actually growing; they are just engaging some variation of more of the same. Life is apparently what happens, while we are busy making other plans.

The greatest problems stem from flawed and false beliefs that lead people to mistrust themselves, and everybody else, except so-called experts and authorities outside of themselves. Anything built upon such mistrust will fail. Likewise anything built upon fear, selfishness and greed, hatred and contempt, scepticism and cynicism. All activity involving these qualities are lacking purity of motive, and will create a flawed foundation, and a downward spiral, distorting and limiting what can ultimately be achieved.

We evolve towards ever greater purity of motive, and the realisation that the end does not justify the means; rather, the means that are used will always determine the end achieved. The notion of ‘scientific scepticism’ is not the open mindedness that we require, so that new information and understandings can be discerned. Discernment, not scepticism is what is required. Discernment enables a person to sift the real from the unreal, the better from the worse, and is of a higher level of consciousness than scepticism and doubt, which are both part of illusionary consciousness. Most people fear trusting themselves to be able to discern, and so use scepticism or resorting to outside authorities or so-called experts to absolve themselves of the responsibility of discerning. Scepticism is fear based, and prevents a person from stepping into the unknown, which is always something a person can be especially sceptical about, thereby locking them into the already known, instead of availing themselves to something new and different. Use it or lose it.

Creator God

Much of western civilisation suffers from embracing a low-level and mainly false concept of God, which includes such vices as authoritarian control, jealousy, possessiveness, vindictiveness and retribution, which taken together does not seem to leave too much room for the devil. These are all negative, dysfunctional energies, worthy of psychotherapy, and anyone voluntarily subordinating themselves to such energies cannot hope to become anything but the same, which may explain the ruthless, destructive nature of religions on that lineage, including Judaism, Christianity and Islam. Those energies do exist in the universe, but are not of Creator God and are not part of the divine process. They are not of whom Jesus referred to as “Our Father”, which is Creator God, and is of the highest Goodness.

The only real protection one has from these and other negative energies is to aim for Creator God as the highest goodness, ask for protection, and steer clear of all low level energies.  

Biological Consciousness

When anybody is born on Earth, they arrive with the body’s biological ‘instinctive’ consciousness, albeit in an undeveloped body, and they also bring with them their ascended consciousness, which can be fairly easily accessed at that time. Instinctive consciousness and ascended consciousness work together and are highly compatible. Likewise on a larger scale, Gaia and Creator God are in telepathic communication and empathic rapport.

Within nature, animals can read the future as it will affect them. Ants build elevated nests before the onset of rain, and horses run wild before an earthquake. They can also know remotely, eg, coastal pelicans know when there is water and much fish in temporary, rarely-filled, central Australian lakes, at least hundreds and perhaps thousands of kilometres inland. Traditional indigenous peoples in their natural, undisturbed habitat also have many abilities that attune them to nature’s ways. Outside of nature, the 3D plane has no consciousness.

Babies and Infants

When children are born, their feeling-self is conscious, as is their awareness-self. These work together to make up the conscious-self, naïve and innocent, ready to experience, discover, learn, understand and realise on the earth plane. This is the normal process of experiential living and growing up, and becoming wiser. Through awareness and feeling, the conscious-self experiences biological consciousness as a natural reality, not unlike other creatures, although in an undeveloped body.

Through feeling and awareness, the conscious-self experiences its ascended consciousness as the higher-self, the in-body representation of the soul, which in its full expression is vastly greater. Awareness and feeling are able to refer to the higher self within, to enable empathic understanding, so that, eg, when a baby is smiled at, it knows what that means. A young child can easily tell whether a baby is a boy or a girl, but adults find this difficult. Young children have a whole amazing reality that is interesting, exciting, hangs together, makes perfect sense, is nourishing and nurturing, and is an intense learning experience.

But babies and young children must also contend with the world of adults, including their culture and technology. The child, being highly receptive, absorbs much of their parents’ unprocessed, disowned, negative emotions, which contaminate their aura, and can be highly distressing. The child lives in this negative psychic atmosphere 24/7, awake and asleep, in good and bad health.

Any feelings of emotional dependence by the baby, renders it likely to absorb unprocessed negativity as if its own, and feel very out-of-sorts as a consequence. Not being of their own creation, it is like suffering someone else’s karma. Eventually, some of this negativity may take hold and remain, and become incorporated into the child’s personal reality.

A child’s real world includes much that adults have since become oblivious to, having traded it in for a dull, drab, boring, conflicted and convoluted, mechanised, materialistic, false reality that produces the unprocessed negativity that children absorb. Another problem for the baby and infant is the doting over the child, which has far more to do with taking on the child’s good energy, than the other way around.

Many people’s lives have become so stressful and uninteresting, that most want to lose themselves in nowhere TV, or mood-numbing legal and illegal drugs, as a low-level, futile substitute for returning to becoming naturally centred and peaceful. This can be the future that awaits every child who loses touch with their bio-ascended consciousness.

Falling into Illusionary Consciousness

The physical universe that people are able to perceive is the 3rd dimension, or 3D. Here on 3D Earth, people of differing stages of conscious evolution are able to co-mingle in ways that does not happen elsewhere in the stratified realms of consciousness ‘surrounding’ the Earth. This is an experiment in conscious ascension created for very far-reaching and high-level reasons. It provides much for each person to work through, thus creating the conditions to break into ascended consciousness, with all of those prior experiences carried through as compassionate wisdom, elevating the soul.

Unfortunately, people in technological civilisations can become overwhelmed quite early by the challenges to maintaining their instinctual biological consciousness, plus their original ascended consciousness, even while living in a technological civilisation and culture that is divorced from nature. The dominant culture sees nature as the problem, creates sure-fail ‘solutions’ and denies the existence of anything beyond the physical, material plane. People are given no higher guidance, and do not know how to keep the sacred relationship between the conscious self, the body and the soul intact.

The soul is always connected with God, but the personality or conscious self, may experience losing contact and communication with the soul, as a result of the trials and tribulations of life, which tend to be very blunt, loud, painful, dramatic, complex, complicated and convoluted, overwhelming the elegance and subtlety of far more finer and clearer vibrations. This loss of contact is really a dysfunctional blocking that can be undone. The soul never loses intimacy with Creator God.

False Teachings

Various religions have formed in the wake of an ascended person who has given out a teaching, usually orally rather than written, to help others ascend. Being put together by un-ascended followers who are still caught in lower levels of consciousness, they generally approximate those higher truths offered, but are often distorted understandings, and will often omit the best and most important aspects.

Christian religions in common believe that people’s nature is inherently sinful, in an inherited kind of way, and because of this supposed inherited flaw, believe it impossible for anyone to have a direct, intimate relationship with God, and if it ever happens at all, it comes only after death, and even then its not assured, and anyone failing to make the grade does not pass go, but instead goes to hell forever.

Most Christians subscribe to a vengeful God out of fear, not love, which doesn’t exactly enthuse them, so they have a religious structure to make up for that. They tend to regard Jesus as a buffer from an angry God, and an easy path to heaven, while still avoiding God, by using Jesus as a permanent substitute. Jesus is a door way for beginners to a loving God. Christians are supposed to move on into a direct relationship with God, freeing up Jesus to assist more newcomers. Most Christians remain terrified of taking the next step of connecting with God directly, when it is the safest thing to do, and instead cling selfishly to Jesus. As a result, Christianity has too often had an appalling impact in the past, and today has become innocuous, and keeps Christians from becoming intimate with God.

Darwinism teaches that the nature of life is ruthlessly competitive, which gives everybody a ‘jungle nature’ (the atheists’ equivalence of ‘original sin’). No matter what calamities we create, be they wars, pollution, famine, environmental destruction, etc, they are rationalised away with the refrain that we are doing quite well, considering that not so long ago, we used to be rock-apes. None of the other mammals screw-up or engage in destruction, so the rock-ape theory does not hold up. The upshot is that way everything is excused, and no growth, evolution or ascension takes place.

Both the flawed Christianity and the false Darwinism teach us not to trust ourselves, or anybody else, which stops growth and conscious evolution in its tracks. In a not too dissimilar fashion, Freud spoke with some insight of the sabotaging subconscious that undermined all that we do. Unfortunately he thought this was a permanent part of our make-up, instead of being the result of emotional negativity that we have denied and buried in our subconscious, and which is still continuing to affect us until it can be healed and released, and the understanding that arises integrated into experiential, compassionate wisdom.

These three fatally-pessimistic teachings are more of a ‘three stooges’ version of human nature. Together they blanket the field with false religion, false science and false psychology, each insisting on the invariability of a negative human nature. Even if a person is not aware of these false beliefs, they are embedded into the culture and will percolate into his reality to become assumed, unexamined axioms.

The truth is considerably better:

  • Our nature is not negative, although we may harbour negativity. Our deepest nature comes from God, and is of God, and that is also where we connect to God, so we must learn to trust ourselves utterly in order to have intimacy with God.
  • Growth, Evolution and Ascension are of consciousness and each of us is responsible for our own rate of growth, level of evolvement, and whether we ascend.
  • Anyone and everyone can have intimacy with God, who is Unconditional Love, Utter forgiveness, Boundless Mercy, Limitless Compassion, Supernal Wisdom, etc, whenever they want, up to their level of conscious evolution, and as the relationship deepens, consciousness evolves.


True Education would prepare a person for ascension, given that God, the universe, a persons life force and their higher self, are all working together in this direction. Unfortunately, mis-education prepares a person for life within the matrix instead.

The true use of the mind is using awareness to develop insight, intuition, understanding, realisation and wisdom. Instead of that amazing high level stuff, the mind is taught to focus and concentrate into a tunnel vision that excludes the aware, questioning mind. The concentrated mind is taught to memorise ‘facts’ by rote learning and cold recall. This cements obsolete misunderstandings and false truths of the nature of life, and replaces valid childhood experiences with a false, ‘metallised’ view of the world that omits all things to do with awareness, sensitivity and feelings as an approach to reality, as is natural in childhood.

This obliterates all existing natural and experiential learning, reasoning, discernment and understanding. The child is then taught logical, sequential, deductive reasoning as a way to analyse and deduce, in lieu of understanding. The logical mind is then indoctrinated into aspects of materialism (the doctrine that nothing exists beyond the physical plane), which it is required to memorise as hard truth, and as a substitute for actual reality. Discerning reality is the responsibility of the left-brain, awareness-self working hand-in-hand with the right-brain, intuitive, feeling-self working.

Another major part of the mis-education system is to ensure every student is indelibly imprinted with win/lose consciousness, through embracing competition in the classroom and in school sport, as a precursor to inducing competitive, selfish motivation in the work arena. These values put people into conflicted, win/lose duality, which is at odds with, and overrides the win/win, unified consciousness of the inner being, higher self, soul, the universe, the cosmos, and God.

Another aspect of the mis-education system is to ensure each student is taught compliance and conformity, and any signs of right-brain consciousness appearing in the form of impulsiveness, cleverness, questioning assumptions, etc, are punished and suppressed, ensuring that the programmed, plodding, logical left-brain is always in command, and materialism reigns supreme.

Other pressures playing upon the growing person come via peers, work, sport, and the media, especially television, all of which are highly conformist, promote the materialistic paradigm, and are intolerant of any individual’s original thoughts, personal values or natural rhythms, which are seen as deviations to be eschewed. Mainstream media also knows that an anxious, insecure, dumbed-down, fear-driven person is far more amenable to advertisements, their source of greatest revenues. 

The false justification for this blanket method of brain-washing, is the erroneous view that people are little more than rock-apes with attitude, and will revert to grunts and gestures without extreme brainwashing supported by carrots and sticks; and that a hard, inflexible, repetitive method is necessary for such essentially dull, stupid animals. 

The problem with clumsy, brutalising practises is that they ride roughshod over a child’s most sensitive and refined processes that will unerringly guide it towards higher things if allowed to. Such brutish methods seriously limit how free a child’s consciousness is allowed to be, and how far it will be allowed to grow, by creating a vicious circle, of children becoming as they are treated, that too often becomes a downward spiral. 

Burying Negative Emotions

One effect of the concentrated mind is to create focused attention at the expense of awareness, like putting a reflector behind a light, to produce a beam that lights up one area, but leaves the rest of the room in darkness. This focussed, concentrated attention can be useful for extracting detail. The problem with permanently focussed attention is that we can only focus our attention on one thing at a time, excluding all else. This can amount to people becoming specialists, or so-called experts who cannot see the forest for the trees, and know nothing about the larger picture.

Attention can equally be used to avoid looking at things. We can turn our attention away from whatever we find unacceptable, which are usually unpleasant experiences. Anything that has been deemed as unacceptable has already been turned away from and rejected, and eschewed out of conscious awareness altogether. Everything so rejected out of conscious awareness becomes subconscious.

Negative Subconscious

But this is not the subconscious that is a bona fide part of our natural, greater consciousness. Our natural subconscious assimilates and integrates experiences to become compassionate wisdom, which it passes to the soul. Instead, areas of our waking consciousness are harbouring all of the negativity that we have refused to accept and process in the normal, natural way.

In rejecting these, we wall them off, and they become areas of our consciousness that are no longer available to us. In his analogy of an iceberg, Freud estimated these to occupy 90% of our consciousness. Fritz Perls, founder of Gestalt Therapy, stated that most people use only 10-15% of our potential.

Unfortunately, it doesn’t end there. These are not areas that are lying passively dormant, ready for use. These are areas harbouring active negativity. They are also protected from scrutiny by an active program that is maintained by areas of consciousness, which are also no longer available to us.

So many unpleasant, painful, unresolved experiences now remain out of sight, while continuing to occupy areas that are meant to be functioning as conscious feeling, and awareness of that feeling. Maintaining avoidance of awareness is a highly active, artificial program that has been created for the purpose, and requires constant maintaining to prevent the person becoming aware of the negativity.

Anything that has been turned away from will not have been scrutinised, healed, understood and then allowed to flow into the deeper subconscious as experiential wisdom to grow the soul, while leaving the conscious awareness free to keep doing its job. This is the normal, natural process of learning and growing.


The more negativity that is shunned, the less feeling-consciousness a person has available, and the less awareness the person has of those feelings. Feelings that have been rejected are still in emotional turmoil, but cannot be processed and healed and integrated. The person no longer knows that they still exist, believing it has simply been banished. This is called denial. Denials often occur following shock or trauma, but self-rejections, such as shame and guilt, etc, can also be denied.

Denial occurs through the refusal to experience the emotional pain caused by the trials and tribulations of life. Any painful emotion that has been sidelined out of awareness becomes part of a negative ‘pseudo’ subconscious that sits atop of the real, natural subconscious and this creates a barrier between the conscious-self and the subconscious. Unacceptable self-judgements that create a sense of shame, guilt, etc, may also be sidelined out of awareness, and similarly become part of the negative subconscious.

The effect of denial is that those areas in denial are pitted against normal consciousness, in a way that cannot be consciously experienced and dealt with. This is extremely undermining, and puts a person in internal conflict and much drains energy.

Original Fear

At a  yet deeper level, the real problem, which for most begins during childhood and then maintains for the rest of their lives, unto death and more so, is the experience of separation from the inner bring or I AM. This can happen for any of a number of reasons, the most dramatic being shock, trauma and pain. Even when these are physical events, the issue is that they cause separation from, and permanent suppression of, the emotional being. It comes down to when the emotional pain is deemed to be too great, it gets pushed out of awareness and becomes subconscious. It hasn’t gone away and the person is still in emotional pain, but no longer knows it. Unfortunately, it now acts as a pain barrier block to the inner being, which guides the child from the moment of birth.    

The emotional being is the part of us that is in touch with nature as basic reality. It is also in touch with the I AM, which functions at an altogether higher level. When a child, or anybody, separates from their most intimate and far reaching part of themselves, their I AM, the overwhelming experience is that of fear, through a functional separation from the soul and God. These now lie on the other side of an emotional pain, trauma and shock barrier. No longer can the person go within to consult their wise, inner being, with the confidence and surety it provides, as the closer one gets to the barrier, the more intensely they begin to experience the buried pain. This will have the dual effect of the person discovering that the subconscious is a place you don’t want to go, and the person becomes a compulsive extrovert. The price they pay is no longer having access to inner guidance and wisdom. The experience they have is existential fear, as in losing one’s true identity. The consequence is for the person to thereafter resort to their mind, which seizes upon the scientific/industrial paradigm is reality, as a substitute for a natural, harmonious paradigm of abundance, while living in subconscious pain and existential fear, manifesting as constant insecurity.

Creating the Pain Body

The negative subconscious is not the true, natural, highly intelligent subconscious that processes experiences into wisdom. The negative subconscious is made up of areas of our consciousness that have been filled with emotional turmoil, then rejected out of awareness thus becoming subconscious, and left active and undermining, instead of being healed.

Eventually, the deeper, natural subconscious processes, necessary for integrating life experiences to produce growth in consciousness, become covered by unprocessed negative, painful emotions, and starved of processed understandings, to be further processed, before passing to the soul.

The accumulation of denied, unprocessed memories of painful experiences that is covering and obscuring our legitimate subconscious is known by some as the pain or denial body. The pain body is an artificial and dysfunctional creation that acts as a barrier and blocks or contaminates communication between the higher self, which communicates through the subconscious, and the normal conscious self. The pain body separates the everyday person from their best part, leaving them undermined by denied emotional turmoil, and without higher guidance.

This emotional negativity and negative emotionality covers the feeling self with a pain/denial/fear barrier that continuously locks the person off from the higher self. The negative emotions are still as upset and uncomfortable as ever, and want resolution.

Effects of the Pain Barrier

Once cut off from the feeling self, the focused mind no longer has contact with actual reality, and so is amenable to being influenced by the putrid, emotional garbage dumps that it no longer thinks exists. This can affect the person profoundly, in a number of ways. For example:

  • The mind, driven by subconscious emotional turmoil, becomes abnormally interested in some things, and very uninterested in certain other things, without questioning why. This can lead to a life focussed on distractions and trivia, and also having obsessional prurient interests, while having little or no interest in the things that really count.
  • The mind, now acting without reference points, becomes amenable to programming that it cannot discern the truth or relevance of, as is being done in the mis-education system.
  • The physical body, experiencing the emotional turmoil at its own level of biological consciousness, is liable to embark on a compensatory eating program, producing compulsive eating habits, especially of ‘consoling’ foods, high in fats, sugars and dairy, leading to health problems such as obesity and diabetes.

Suppressing the Right-Brain Feeling-Self

Eventually, the feeling self, which we may also refer to as the right-brain, becomes smothered with unresolved, denied, painful, and stuck emotional feelings and memories that clog the aura. The person can no longer navigate the world using sensitive feelings, as the pain and disorientation is too great.

Eventually, the smothered feeling self gets walled off from conscious awareness, and becomes subconscious, buried under the weight of negativity. The feeling self now becomes the ‘inner’ being. This inner-being is now permanently covered by a pain/shame/denial barrier, and being out of the reach of conscious awareness, cannot heal itself, or be healed from without.

Developing the Left-Brain Thinking-Self

Once a person loses contact with their feeling self, which usually happens in childhood, they feel fearful, insecure, unbalanced, unhappy and in an existential vacuum. They are also out of empathic touch with the natural world, and so the illusionary, mainstream world of clumsy trial and error gains significance.

Sooner or later, most children will fill this void with the left-brain, and develop a thinking type of consciousness. The feeling self becomes permanently subconscious, and the left-brain conscious awareness becomes replaced by a thinking mind, which then maintains an attitude of aloof denial of the emotional pain. The left-brain now acts to keep the right-brain and its emotional pain out-of-sight, out-of-mind, and suppressed.

The thinking mind has arisen out of denied emotional pain, and constantly acts in a denied reaction to it, whilst rationalising that the problem and solution lies outside of itself. So an internally insecure person may seek material wealth and other useless buffers against inner insecurity. Nothing from outside can quench internal emotional pain, and as it accumulates, the mind becomes more desperate and compulsive in its thinking, all about wrong ways to solve the problem, much of which can be reduced to planning the next buffer, or how to distract oneself in superficial trivia.

The emotional pain body that covers the feeling self has been shunned, denied and buried in the subconscious. The feeling self has been buried under overwhelming emotional pain. The mind denies the existence of the now-subconscious emotional pain, and by extension denies the existence of the feeling self. Yet it acts in reaction to the emotional pain, and then rationalises its activities in plausible excuses.  This is the world of illusion.

Consciousness and Identity

A person does not cease to have consciousness after they have cut themselves off from their consciousness awareness and their higher self. Consciousness adapts itself to whatever a person identifies with. People may identify with their bodies, minds, possessions, partners, careers, professions, etc. This allows people to keep living their lives, but without true conscience or higher values, their consciousness will inevitable become some variation of the mainstream, materialistic, illusionary reality.

Soul consciousness exists in its own right as radiant love, compassionate wisdom, etc. and is what each of us really are. But once soul consciousness is overshadowed by painful denials, a selfishly orientated, self-referencing, fictional ego usually arises to fill the void. It becomes a stand-in substitute for true higher consciousness. The ego is illusionary and has no true existence, ever. Because of this it is always fearful and insecure, and always looks for security outside, whether through power over others, money, material wealth, approval, etc.

Denial Consciousness

When we feel emotional pain, it is our sensitive feelings that are there to guide us that is experiencing the pain. This is telling us something is not right. Without this feedback experience of emotional pain, we would have no ultimate way of telling what is true or false, right or wrong, good or bad, better or worse, other than simply believing plausible information that has been presented to us, or by resorting to trial and error. We then have no intrinsic conscience, only a conscience based on matrix values.

Beyond a certain point of emotional pain, a person may become traumatised, or go into shock, or otherwise learn how to deny the emotional pain through sidelining it out of conscious awareness. This dissociates or splits the feeling of pain from the conscious awareness, taking that area of conscious awareness with it, so that it now continues to live subconsciously. Thereafter, any similar or associated emotional experiences will tend to be likewise rejected and denied and added to the pile, and so it builds. Eventually a person can develop a comprehensive denial consciousness, imprisoned in the subconscious, made up of unhealed, rejected painful experiences.

This does not solve the problem, or the pain associated with it. All denials are self-rejections that have been assigned to denial consciousness in a disowned, out-of-sight, out-of-mind way. These self-rejections lurk, nagging at the person, undermining the person from beneath the level of awareness, where it cannot be forgiven, accepted, healed, assimilated or integrated. This gives the person a constant feeling of lacking fulfilment, and a vague sense of something about them being not quite right, leading to self-doubt, a lack of confidence, a negative self-image, and an inferiority complex. All because of what hasn’t been processed.

By its very nature, the denied pain barrier disinclines the person from looking within to address the problem, and all attempts to address the feelings of unease on conscious levels are likely to be reactive and compensatory, and will miss the point.  These mis-directed methods cause the person to live an illusionary, spiritually static, symbolic life, instead of living a real, authentic life and spiritually progressing.

In its natural state, prior to being transformed into a garbage dump, the subconscious is a rich inner world of deeper understanding, to explore and enjoy and learn from. It now becomes a place of pain and unpleasant memories to be denied, rejected and kept away from. The explanations of original sin a la Genisis, jungle nature a la Darwin, and sabotaging subconscious a la Freud, each find plausible justification here and only serve to increase peoples’ fear of their own subconscious.

Adopting a Negative Self-Image

By the time people become adults, many of them have far more of their waking consciousness assigned out of awareness and into sub-conscious denials, than rightfully assigned to conscious awareness. In Freud’s day, he likened it to an iceberg, and estimated the ratio to be about 10 parts subconscious to 1 part consciousness.

Spiritual life is about increasing, not decreasing conscious awareness, and anyone with buried, denied pain will experience a nagging, undermining, sense that things inside are not quite right, and this gives rise to a negative self-image that undermines whatever they do. They may then identify with this, giving them a chronic negative self-image and an inferiority complex.

Creating a Positive Self-Image

After a time of feeling bad about themselves and the feelings of insecurity and depression that go with it, some people will undertake to manifest a positive self-image, so that they can feel good about themselves. This may be through developing skills and becoming a more functional and capable person. But it is more likely to be consistent with the mainstream trend of developing the symptoms of success, like competing against others to win, acquiring wealth and material goods, having romantic conquests, gaining status, etc. The general theme is to seek approval, acceptance and confirmation from others, in order to feel good about oneself.

All such gestures are futile, because they do not strike at the heart of the problem, but on the contrary, a self-image is created to place a counter-balancing barrier over the negative self-image, in an out of sight, out of mind kind of way. Underlying every positive self-image there continues to remain a highly-active, negative self-image, still undermining it, still driving it, keeping the game alive, and keeping the player locked into a never-ending futile quest, and as a result becoming ever more committed to the mainstream, illusional reality for a solution. The nature of the positive self-image is likely to be somewhat opposite of the negative self-image, and provides a clue what the person suffers from.

Ego Consciousness

The ego does not exist as an entity in its own right. It is an activity. It is simply a never ending, self-referring and self-referencing activity, in the absence of a true and abiding sense of self. Like a vortex, no substance, just activity. It sits on one side of the pain barrier, in denial of the pain, and the real self is on the other side of the pain barrier, lock out of communicating with the conscious awareness. The true self, whose nature is radiance, is effectively trapped behind a pain barrier. The ego’s attention is turned outwards, away from the pain that it reacts to, but refuses to recognise, and its every activity is to usurp the true self and act, not with radiance, but like a vortex seeking to suck in energy to itself.

The ego constantly compares itself to others, and measures itself on what it has, because it does not have a true sense of what it is. It is not the I AM, which is sufficient unto itself, and it knows it every time it crows and brags. Spiritual life is about dissolving ego consciousness, created out of positive self-image’s need to dominate negative self-image, so that one’s Soul consciousness which is accessed via self-acceptance and self-awareness to shine through.

Ego, greed and corruption are all founded on fear-based reactions, to an already underlying fear that has been caused through loss of connection with one’s inner being, or higher self. This is caused by shock, trauma, denials etc, which have been forced out of conscious awareness and added to the subconscious. This becomes a fear/pain barrier causing a functional disconnection from the emotional body, or right brain, which is the part that is in contact with the higher self.  Reacting to fear, instead of accepting and overcoming it, only locks a person to the fear and perpetuates it.

The ego searches in others for the love that it longs for, but it does not know that its every action is to separate itself from God-connected, inner love. The same predicament applies to the person they search in vain for. Their every action, once having found each other is likewise to separate themselves from each other’s God-connected inner love as well. Implicit in this statement is that genuine intimacy with another will enable reconnecting, so nothing is doomed.


Projection occurs when a person reads into, or projects onto another person, the very qualities they deny in themselves. This happens because whatever is denied remains in, and contaminates the aura, becoming a distorting filter through which to mis-perceive and mis-relate to the outside world.

Projection occurs when blocked energy gets disturbed, and arises from within, and there is an ongoing refusal to accept responsibility for what one is already in denial about, and so it gets targeted at whoever is regarded as triggering the disturbance.

Anybody who is catalytic, which is anybody who is in touch with their inner being, can trigger these painful denials in a blocked person inadvertently, because the unblocked person can explore, and think about and talk about things that the blocked person retains as sore points to avoid. These sore areas can erupt; result in venting of much negative, emotional energy. Unfortunately, it will usually be directed at someone who may be quite innocent of the projected accusations contained within the abuse. 

Denials create a fragmenting of consciousness, and a denial of service to those now-negatively charged areas of consciousness which, still being active, will attract or will be attracted to situations that will bring pressure to bear upon areas with negativity or blocked and disrupted flows. This is to assist the person clear the underlying and undermining problem.

Cognitive Dissonance

Cognitive dissonance occurs when a person encounters information or a belief that contradicts or conflicts with the person’s already established information or beliefs, so the person doesn’t know what to believe. For an emotionally closed person, who relies exclusively on the mind, this can present quite a dilemma. The mind of the emotionally closed person cannot handle being open, and would rather risk choosing the wrong option, than hold the mind open until something becomes apparent or more obvious.

Emotionally open people can hold their mind in abeyance, and suspend making hard beliefs. Such a dilemma means more food for thought, and an invitation to look at the beliefs from other angles, to see if somehow they are both true, or whether there may be other ways of understanding the options, etc.


All self-imagery arise after a loss of sense of self, and are a reaction to the fear and insecurity that emerges from that feeling of loss. All people with a positive self-image have built it to cover up their still-active, negative self-image. The negative self-image is the shadow self that the positive self-image is always actively trying to refute, and so the positive self-image contains much about it that is polar-opposite of the underlying negative self-image, all designed to boost the person’s self-confidence. This locks a person into matrix consciousness, and becomes an extremely convoluted, entangled and painful problem to unravel.

From time to time, after bottling and building up much negative energy, the negative self-image will assert itself to purge itself of the pent up energy. This can be especially true during times when the positive self-image’s guard is down, such as when consuming alcohol. The person’s outburst or impulsive behaviour can appear out of the blue, and being dysfunctional, seem out of character. After releasing some pent-up negative energy, and having made its point painfully on others, the negative self-image sinks back into the subconscious, temporarily relieved and pacified.

The positive self-image, which had absented itself during the outburst, reasserts its normal role, sometimes in complete denial of the event, but more usually rationalising the tantrum as completely reasonable under the circumstances. The person is effectively living in polarised duality, and not being in touch with their true needs, can become committed to seeking symbolic satisfactions that never fulfil, in a never-ending, financially draining and often health-destroying quest.

The positive self-image can usually gloss over what it does not wish to take responsibility for. Its very existence depends on maintaining the façade to itself, via convincing others, as a way of seeking their approval, all to counter the denied but still activated, negative self-image. This locks everything in place, maintaining a life of futility and pointlessness. This is the life of most people, constantly propping up a positive self-image within the illusionary, lifeless mainstream paradigm is a very poor substitute for existing in or ascending to higher states of consciousness where harmony and fulfilment are a given. 

All people are bipolar to greater or lesser degrees, until they choose to leave the world of duality behind altogether and ascend. Schizophrenics are people who have given away far greater amounts of their sovereign consciousness through greater denials. They have a far greater denial/pain conscious, and experience cognitive dissonance far more intensely. Their needs for a satisfying self-image are far more desperate, and the negative self-image is far greater, usually closer to the surface, and ready to spring into action at a moment’s notice.

Illusionary Consciousness

The state of conscious that most people regard as ‘reality’ is not their natural, true, higher- consciousness, but an artificially constructed, left-brain paradigm that usurps and supplants the best and most important aspects of real consciousness, and instead replacing it with an obsolete, mechanistic paradigm, that has been persisted with since the industrial revolution. Being unnatural, it is not connected with nature, nor any part of the entire universe of consciousness, dimensions and beings, all of which are harmoniously and telepathically interconnected to one another.

Illusionary consciousness changes peoples’ perceptions so that they are unable to see things as they truly are. Instead of perceiving harmony and unity, people perceive in terms of their fears and prejudices, which affect their preferences. Many are commonly held preferences, inducing much group think where people reinforce each others biases and prejudices.

Mainstream consciousness has been constructed upon certain false assumptions about the nature of oneself, of other people, of life, of nature, of God, and the point and purpose of it all. These false low-level, illusionary, unexamined assumptions keep people from achieving their full potential, which many people mistakenly think is physical fitness, a career and material wealth.

Illusionary consciousness keeps people from knowing the real truth, and is devoid of appreciations of nature, the spiritual realms and the cosmic, whilst regarding the nature of life itself as fundamentally hostile and in need of structuring, and of nature as fundamentally hostile and in need of controlling.

These false assumptions cause people to live at a far lower level of consciousness than is natural to them, and is devoid of appreciations of nature, the spiritual realms and the cosmic. Instead it regards the nature of life itself as fundamentally hostile and in need of structuring, and the nature of nature as fundamentally hostile and in need of dominating. This prevents people from realising their true potential, keeping them unfulfilled, and causing them to live compensatory lives of compromise and distraction.

Illusionary Matrix Consciousness

Ego consciousness has no independent existence in its own right, and seeks confirmation from others, producing a kind of affinity and stickiness, where people adapt and adjust their values and beliefs, producing agreed realities, making interaction safe. This leads to cliques, which can be as small as two people and as large as nations and civilisations.  The NWO is an attempted planetary clique of those who subscribe to it. 

This fear-based tendency to produce agreed realities is given a boost by the mainstream system. Mis-educational institutions and non-news services act to keep people on the same page with the same subjects, same interpretations, same slants. Most people find the illusionary reality overwhelming, and so obviously ‘real’ that they are unable to question the matrix they have been sucked into, are immersed in, and have committed themselves to.

The totality of commonly held false consciousness, false religion, false beliefs, false values and false understandings make up the matrix. The matrix is whatever values, beliefs etc, act to separate a person from their biological consciousness and their ascended consciousness. The matrix is the commonly held, illusionary consciousness that most people take as solid reality and certain truth. Every false and illusionary aspect of mainstream society is the matrix. Truth and reality are not part of the matrix.

The matrix is not an improvement on our natural consciousness, and cannot create solutions to our real needs. Instead it invents mechanised answers like processed, junk food, devoid of nutrition, and chemical medicine with toxic side-effects, etc.

Most people live inside a false, artificial, illusionary, unnatural, materialistic, mechanistic matrix-consciousness bubble, in isolation from the entire universe of nourishing and uplifting energies. Most try to live safe, secure, predictable lives in what they experience as a hostile reality, instead of doing what it takes to put on spiritual growth. This requires people to keep stepping into the marvellous unknown, and to keep extending themselves beyond their current abilities. In particular, this refers to growing in compassionate wisdom, one of clearest signs of an advancing soul.

Creating the Mental Matrix

The logical, deductive mind cannot solve existential problems at any time, because its very nature is to know about all sorts of things, based upon foundational beliefs, without actually knowing anything in truth. Knowing belongs to the feeling self, because it can tune in. So the mind constructs its own take on reality, by accumulating plausible beliefs that offer a sense of security. All knowledge based on beliefs is likewise, just beliefs.

Beliefs are a permanent commitment of the mind in the absence of actual, experiential knowing. Beliefs close the mind, and take the place of a living reality. Instead of forming beliefs, the mind should always be held open, in abeyance, allowing more information to enter, be discerned, and accumulate, until a fuller picture is realised and understood. This is how the mind is supposed to work, and is why people learn to meditate, to open the mind. Whenever the mind closes, illusion takes over reality. 

Beliefs are like icebergs in one’s consciousness, around which false understandings, consistent with those beliefs are formed. All knowledge based on foundational beliefs, is illusionary. They override and replace ones sensitive feeling for actuality and truth.

Beliefs are formed and clung to out of insecurity, and this makes them hard to dislodge in the face of true, but conflicting information, which is immediately dismissed as false, before they are examined, so discernment cannot enter, and a better understanding does not build. Beliefs prevent people noticing incremental changes in reality, until they become a crisis or calamity before they can break into conscious awareness, so that the real problem can at last be addressed, based on experience. Life happens while the mind is making other plans.

Plausible beliefs, and the misunderstandings that arise out of them, are the matrix. It is an illusionary, false-reality that keeps people believing and thinking they are little more than rock-apes with a bad attitude in a hostile world which is cut off from the rest of a hostile universe. The entire world of rational, and irrational thought has been founded on false, crippling beliefs, all of which severely constrain a person’s capacity to experience their inner divine nature and its harmonious relationship with the rest of nature and the universe and the cosmos, and get on with evolving. Actual God is the last thing that that mind and the matrix can handle.

Matrix false consciousness has no connection with ascended consciousness or its wisdom, does not and cannot know the true purpose for living or the real reason for incarnating. Instead, the mind becomes embedded in the mainstream illusionary world of artificial, mechanistic, logical thinking about far less relevant matters.

The Materialistic, Mechanistic, Left-Brain, illusionary Matrix

The mainstream illusionary matrix is created and sustained in people by believing and memorising false truths, and then thinking derived from these left-brain activities. It is all based on the past, on what has already happened. All knowledge is of the past, so its understanding, or misunderstanding, of anything belongs to the past. Knowing, as an activity, belongs to the present, but knowledge, as beliefs, prevent people from truly being in the present, or from feeling the future, which people in the present can do. It separates people from the natural evolutionary flow of nature, which is now moving rapidly towards planetary ascension. 

The matrix cannot look to the future and resorts to extrapolations of the past. This does not allow for improvements, and is completely unaware of actual future patterns, which are very different from the past, and will represent a complete departure from past trends and tendencies.

The mainstream matrix is disconnected from the natural world, as well as higher realms of consciousness, and from the divine. Do you believe in God, or do you have a relationship with God? Nobody with their consciousness inside the matrix can understand that the natural world has its own intimate, creative connection to the divine, and should never be abused. No one can abuse nature without creating serious disconnections from their own biological self, with far-reaching implications. 

The matrix is a mental creation, and all those who choose to lead with their minds will stay within the matrix, and remain completely out of touch with the real, actual reality, beginning with the natural world, which it depends on, yet is in the process of destroying.

The illusionary matrix is essentially materialism, and substantially made up of:

  • materialistic science that sees nothing beyond the physical;
  • materialistic religion which regards all beyond the physical as unattainable;
  • a materialistic ‘high-culture’ that copies and imitates the values of the elite from centuries ago.
  • a contemporary culture, wreaking with decadence, that distracts people from all issues necessary, important, relevant, beneficial, nurturing or uplifting to people’s lives and planetary wellbeing, and cannot even begin to contemplate ascension.

All aspects of the matrix are in serious need of upgrading, if not replacing altogether, and will continue to create ‘unsolvable’ problems for people and the planet until they are. Right now, the matrix is in the process of its own self-destruction, to make way for a higher paradigm.

The Matrix and Fear

The Matrix is made up of whatever is false and illusionary, whatever is contaminated by greed and deception. Collectively, it is everything that is not part of the Real and has no basis in the real Reality that penetrates every aspect of life and extends from nature up to the cosmos. Reality is founded on Love.

The matrix is founded on fear, not love. Every young person at some point experiences a sense of separation from their true self. This is the most fearful experience of their life, and often follows shock, trauma, intense pain, etc.

Reconnecting with the true self again, should then be the immediate and overwhelming quest of everybody, and is what ascension is all about. Ascension is so difficult for people to achieve, because they retain the subconscious memory of that most overwhelming fear, and are terrified of re-experiencing it. Most people live their whole lives and pass over without consciously reconnecting.

Fear stands for false expectations appearing real, and the fear of re-embracing the fear is just that – false expectations appearing real, because ascension is about going from that already existing subconscious fear that already runs every aspect of their lives, to re-experiencing the overwhelming Love of the Soul, which now resides at deeper, unconscious levels, and bringing it into conscious awareness.  The subconscious fear itself is the only thing in the way. 

In the mean time, the person’s whole life is now founded on fear, and from fear comes the ego, or false sense of self founded on fear, and from this follows anger, hatred, greed, exploitation, competition, and the whole gamut of negative emotions. Whatever is done with subconscious fear as the base emotion is contaminated by such, and is accordingly compromised. What ever is done in a compromised way creates negative karma for the doer. And whatever is done in a compromised way contributes to the matrix. 

The conscious mind is often referred to as the left brain, and in its present form has arisen as a reaction to the loss of true, heart-based self, and is likewise founded on fear. As such, everything the fear-based mind does contributes to the matrix, and energetically locks the person into the matrix, and into perpetuating the matrix. The matrix is nothing but the collective illusions of deluded minds that people cling to out of insecurity, based upon fear.

Western Civilisation and Culture

Consistent with creating a false world with false values, Western civilisation has a long history of martyring and assassinating, or at least destroying the work and effectiveness of, its ascended way-showers, and this still occurs today. Lightworkers and wayshowers, and anybody else on the path of ascension are experienced as an extreme threat by all those commitment to maintaining the 3D matrix, because they invariably advocate a world of peace, harmony, freedom, sovereignty and equality for all, which immediately strikes at the sources of extreme greed, power and corruption, who perpetuate the matrix through control of its institutions. They benefit immensely from the matrix and regard the rest of humanity as their slaves.

Nothing in current western mainstream culture is geared towards ascension, and anything that arise that promotes or facilitates ascension, is either shut down, as in free energy generators, or corrupted and usurped into the matrix, as in rock-n-roll. When rock-n-roll freed a generation, it was not part of mainstream, and many in mainstream were horrified at the emotional freeing up of a younger generation. When the flower children appeared with a suite of higher-level understanding and values, they were not part of mainstream consciousness, and the global elite, who control the masses, were appalled at their freedom and gentle, healthy values. They took insidious counter-measures against both examples of young peoples’ freedom, empowerment and sovereignty to ensure there never again would there be an outbreak of ascension consciousness. The results today are starkly obvious.

Instead of any part of mainstream culture leading people towards their ascended consciousness, as indigenous cultures do via their responsible way of living and initiations, it occupies people with mindless distractions, convincing them that there is nothing more to life than the material plane and greed. These false beliefs are what forms the matrix. The matrix exists only in the consciousness of those who continue to commit their minds to its continuance, in an oblivious, mind-over-matter kind of way.

Leaving the Illusionary Matrix

Solutions to worsening global problems will not be found within the matrix, or at that level of consciousness, but will require reaching beyond the current paradigm, as is beginning to happen with renewable energies, people meditating, eating natural food, using natural healing modalities, etc. The replacement of the 3D matrix with high 4D, and then 5D consciousness will necessitate root and branch transformation of our existing dysfunctional system. Those parts of the system unable to transform are already imploding, so that they can be replaced with higher-level solutions, and this is at last becoming apparent to the mainstream masses, who would otherwise remain closed to the possibility of ascending.

Anyone ascending is catalytic on others, even when asleep. Their interactions with others are always to appeal to their higher consciousness, which responds by pushing out those negative emotions and false beliefs that are blocking its expression. This assists them to release these negative emotions and false beliefs, so that their higher consciousness can express itself. Those whose fears and insecurities are too great to let go of, or put to one side, are prone to projecting the re-emerging negativity at whoever is deemed to be the source of their disturbance.

As the collapsing 3D paradigm becomes more unreliable and painful to cling to, more and more people are able to step aside and be open to better ways of living and being, and turning problems into opportunities to create higher-level, win-win solutions. Problems will only be solved from a higher perspective, and as more people ascend, their insights and collective wisdom will percolate into the collective consciousness, and the necessary changes will no longer seem impossible, or even so difficult.

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